NyQuil and Honesty.

“Get comfortable with being uncomfortable!” 
― Jillian Michaels

Already day 17 of the challenge and wow have I learned a few things about myself.

• When it comes to drinking water I am no phenom.
• I now know why I haven't been happy with my scale. 
• Exercise is a habit now.

So, about drinking water. Just in case you didn't know, when it is freezing outside drinking water is not easy. All my body wants is warm comforting coffee. It has been a struggle but I have overcome it. I know I am drinking enough because frankly I am always in the bathroom. After having three littles the old bladder is not what she used to be.

Some other lovely things I have been dealing with is sickness. Thank goodness with only myself and no one else has the crud. I have been all but couch/bed bound for nearly a week now. Thank the heavens it wasn't the hubs because if he so much as sniffles call 9-1-1 he must be dying!

Any who, my plateau, new start whatever is not working and frankly it blows a big fat one. I am going to meld minds with some of my trainer friends and see if maybe I have over looked something. Maybe I am over thinking it? All I can say that my dream of wearing a cute little modcloth dress to Christmas was gashed yet again. I am a bit grumpy due to my sick bug but I am just getting flustered.

No, I have not entered white flag country but those ever pervasive thoughts of accepting myself as I am keep coming up. Then what? I go on another fitness bend and the cycle starts all over again. I am being honest I don't like my body in its current state and I need to work harder to get the results I want. Also, it is too expensive (and against the lease arrangement) to change all the mirrors to shoulder up ones. Having always been big and never having a bikini season in my life. I just want to finally be in end stage. I know I will always have to exercise and will always have to eat right. Those things are standard. I just want my hard work to show some results.

Any encouragement would be great as I am running on empty. I am an eternal fount for others (I will be positive until you become positive!!!) but am scraping the bottom for myself. I know a lot is due to lack of in person support. All my studying has shown that lack of support system in key to being successful! I am lucky to have some but nothing like in the south. I am working on that but my sparkling personality can rub some the wrong way. I am also lazy at being the new kid. Poor me wah wah. So hopefully I can work on all these things and together we can get all the great results we envision!

Dear Santa,

All I want for Christmas is some friends. All of my acquaintances are nice, but some real hang out and bum around the gym friends would be great! Maybe even the occasional families get together type. I don't want to be the creepy in corner person anymore!

Thanks Jules

This was not my best today, but I am hopped up a little on the Quil still.  Feeling ucky does not bring out my good side. Plus being the season I should be honest right?

Challenge

Accept the challenges so that you can feel the exhilaration of victory.
George S. Patton 

So to prove that I am out of my fruity little mind a bit more. I have decided to propose a challenge. 

De-wad your panties, it isn't going to be super difficult (well maybe). I am just trying to make this whole eating thing a tad more accountable for me. That is my biggest issue honestly. I can exercise like a beast but then the beast wants dairy queen. Sorry Skinny Cow, but you just are no match to a blizzard. 

So the details:

For 30 days (starting tomorrow Dec.2nd) we will be accountable! 

1.Log all the tiny morsels that pass those purdy little lips. 

2.Exercise at least three times a week. 

3.Drink all that water we are supposed to.

It sounds easy but I promise that is being December this may prove difficult. Because, don't you know? December is national F*ck my health month!! It is my friends, well I made it up, but we have all done it. Gotten to January and had to start all over again. I find it tiring and frankly want to come out of the month on the upswing.

December comes and no matter what holiday you are celebrating food is involved. There are so many gatherings to attend. Each with their own deadly array of bite size heavenly death. Sure there will be that one benign tray of fruit or vegetables in the spread. Good luck finding it though. It will be next to the stacks of button popping, mouth watering, orgasm inducing delights. By the times you get to the rabbit food, you have already sampled the buffet once, OK maybe three times. 

Not to mention all the drinks. Free booze!!!! It flows like the Mississippi and sometimes just as thick. Coffee is lined with bailey's (at least in my family), Wine is spiced and eggnog is well eggnog. So even if you stay away from the drool inducing nibbles you are still at risk of drinking your calories.

Inevitably we come out of it in January like a bad one night stand. Really wishing it hadn't happened but their might be a few pictures and the scale to tell us otherwise. Plus we revert back to wanting all that sugar and carbilicious food because guess what? Just like an addict we got our fix. Now, breaking the cycle will be just as hard as when we started.

That is why I propose we challenge ourselves. Challenge ourselves to leave the month in the same size we entered. Tell December that no, our fat pants will not become our regular pants. No, we will not attend a party for just the food. No, we will get past this season and enjoy the people not what can slide down our throats.

So, to join the challenge just say yes in the comments. Then when I post, we will keep up on the progress. Tell some friends and we can get a big group of anti-fat pants fighters. I'll be keeping track on Myfitnesspal.com. My name is Julesboch so friend me *wink*. Also, feel free to chide me when I slip. I will do the same for you (yea public degrading!!! Super fun!!!).

We can do it. Now let's lead the charge!