As I sit hear typing this. I have a tantrum-ing two year old at my feet. Angry with me because I didn't think his head butting game was very fun. That's right I am a mom too. Not the best I am afraid. As I often fantasize about sticking my young'ins to the wall with Velcro. Then happily (singing like snow white on crack) accessorizing their little mouths with shimmering silver duct tape. I don't though, instead I used to grab an unhealthy snack to tame my frustration. A little sugary morsel to console my stressed out self. So what do I do now that I am on the health wagon.
I DON'T KNOW?
That's right I am still figuring that out. I still hear my passionate pantry call my name. Ever persuading me to steal a shiny silver clad pop tart. Which are clearly labeled "Kids only". Then the little angel and devil show up to argue their sides.
Devil: You're a kid at heart right, and anyways you exercised today. You totally have the calories to spare.
Angel: Hell no! You know right where those things will be marching. That's right! An army of cellulite marching straight to your thighs.
Devil: It's not going to kill your diet to splurge.
Angel: Douch-canoe, this is not a diet it is a life change!
While the battle in my head ensues, I am still sitting there like a drooling buffoon staring at the shelves of the pantry. When in another room, world war three has broken out over a cat toy (like the actual cat's toy). More times than not I close the door and walk away. I count to ten and try to resolve the battle du jour.
It is frustrating though! Having always turned to food in my time of need, breaking the cycle is ridiculously difficult. I want to nibble to feel better.
Then on the opposite side is the guilt when you do eat the momentary joy-inducing toxin. "Why?" I could have had carrots, I wasn't really hungry... The cycle never ends and it is tortuous to be in the spiral. I am so tired of being a hypocrite to my life change. So what is one to do?
STOP... Cold turkey
I am challenging myself and you to STOP the ugly cycle of EAT and GUILT.
So how do we do that? What are some of your tips you can share?
Bring it on we all wanna know!!
I'd love to know also, as my angel and devil sound eerily like yours.
ReplyDeleteWhen both of them are talking at once. I LOSE it. Or when I have a vision of a darling mother daughter moment instead of the realistic mother TODDLER moments that are FAR MORE LIKELY.
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