Don't look back...

Starting over Day 1: A quick glimpse to the past.

1.

Feb. 2007 weight: 175 size: 12/14

(The thinnest I have ever been)

2.

Dec. 2010 (15wks pregnant...Sadly not really a baby belly)

The largest I have ever been.

weight: 302.6 size: 22

3.

Me currently. weight: 226 size 16/18

“The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide you’re not going to stay where you are.” — John Pierpont Morgan

Plateau... If you are a person that is trying to lose weight or inches this word is one of the bad ones. Right up there with the F-word (fat). Well my lovelies that is the state in which I have found myself. So instead of hanging on to all that negativity. Getting down on myself about not losing. Fearing I will never get to my goals. I am proud of what I have done. I am going to be starting fresh! I am not forgetting it but just rebooting.

You know how it is. That morning when you wake up and make the life change. The time that it is for real. Not the two weeks you go full out and then hurt (hunger) so bad you quit. Nope the time you really do get the mind set. You are an unstoppable locomotive of health, fitness, and energy. Eager to share your excitement with others.Excited to get started on that journey to health. If you are like me the tarnish begins to settle when the weight stops dropping. You are over educated by all the scary things at the grocery store (Which you would once shove down your throat happily). Food is no longer your friend it is your enemy. You are looking down your nose at some foods and putting others on pedestals. Not only that but every minute you sit to relax, you think (or torture yourself) about how you should be doing something else. 

"I could be squatting now"

"When I stop at this next red light I will squeeze my glutes"

"Iced tea and salad is all I need"

These are not bad things. It is good to stay active but there has to be balance. Balance is a hard thing to find. In our image crazed world we want to eliminate, go to extremes, and deprive because that is what THEY do. It does come to a point though where your life is ruled by this. It is an obsession and fighting it gets exhausting. So I am starting over at square one. Yes I have a learning curve. I teach fitness classes and the like, I know what is healthy and what is not. But I am done going crazy over it. I am going to find Balance. So here is my fresh start... Of which there might be several. 

Oh yes I am insane for doing this at holiday time (and birthday time at our house). However, I have a few weapons in my arsenal to make it just a touch easier.
   1. I am making Thanksgiving dinner! 
   2. As tempting as some foods look I will be practicing self control. (one bacon wrapped smokey... Not all of them)
   3. I am going to get angry at the holidays! You wanna make me fat????  Bring it on bitch! I will cut you!
   4. Make it about the time spent with family. Not the food I will eat. 

So consider the slate clean and here goes the freshest start.

So here it goes. *Gulp*

Pounds lost: 0

Starting weight: 226.6

Let's do this!